She Has Become

30 years old. Single as a Pringle. This is not where I saw myself when I was a teenager, one with daydreams galore of what my adult life would look like. Married by 25, a few kids by the time I was 28, a dog running around chasing my kiddos; laughing at the spectacle with my hubby as we sipped our morning cup of coffee together. Ah, a sweet dream. Instead I wake up alone, to a quiet house, groggy eyed as I stumble to the bathroom to make myself look somewhat decent for society, whilst mentally preparing for my day and thinking about what kind of coffee I want to consume before having to interact with people. *shudder* No. This was not the life I had expected to be living as a 30 year old. And though my heart aches desperately to see my daydream come to pass, . And though my heart aches desperately to see my daydream come to pass, I can say in all honesty that I am happily content in this season I am in. They say that you really become and “adult” in your 30’s, (let’s be honest, can we really say we are all adults here, or just trying to find a “adultier adult”?) I have come to love this chapter in my life, and all that it’s brought me. They say that you really become and “adult” in your 30’s, (let’s be honest, can we really say we are all adults here, or just trying to find a “adultier adult”?) I have come to love this chapter in my life, and all that it’s brought me. I feel as though I’ve finally become the woman that I daydreamed I would be, but in a different way. See, life is all about perspective. Am I married or in a relationship, no? But I have an incredibly wonderful group of friends, all with whom I have some great relationships with. Do I have kids? No, but I do have some kids that I always get to love and dote on in some of my friendships. Not only that, but I’m honored because I get to mentor some amazing ladies, and that is SO fulfilling all in itself. Do I have a dog running around the house, no....but I do have a lazy, very vocal cat who likes to run up to me when I get home from work (mostly for treats but work with me here). And no, no husband...but I do have coffee and that has never changed! (Thank the lord for those life giving beans) Perspective. Do I wallow and compare, or do I choose joy in every season and live life with a big ol’ smile and ripples of genuine, loud laughter? (ok ok and a snort here and there) Do I have my days where I just want to wallow in self pity and compare, uh yea honey, of course I do. But the choice in that is that I don’t continue in all of those feelings. I have my moments and then walk away from them and enjoy some of the little delights that life has to offer. Did someone say coffee date? Reality. I have become the woman I daydreamed myself to be in the here and now, but I have become her through different situations...and that’s okay. There will come a day, a most beautiful one of those long awaited dreams come true, I have become the woman I daydreamed myself to be in the here and now, but I have become her through different situations...and that’s okay. There will come a day, a most beautiful one of those long awaited dreams come true, and it will all be worth it. God is a God who fulfills His promises. The deep, saturated desires that He’s placed within the very core of your being, God is a God who fulfills His promises. The deep, saturated desires that He’s placed within the very core of your being, He will bring to pass in His timing. Hebrews 10:23 states that “we should hold tightly onto hope, because He, our Promiser, is faithful.” Today. Today I choose to continue to become. To become the woman that I daydreamed I would become, to become the wife that my one day husband will need me to be, to become the mother that my children will one day need. To become the woman that God has destined me to become since the beginning of time. I am becoming.